5th May 2025

Random

No point in comparing myself to others. Drew this today. It's an alien cat with a burger and the burger has a halo idk why maybe I could make some kind of imagery up like "because the source of the beef is an angel" but mostly it's just cause I thought it looked cute and also it vaguely reminded me of sonic. Sorry this isn't very elegant or aesthetically aligned with the rest of my site. Well I'm not that elegant of a person anyway, I'm just a person. I drew it in microsoft paint. Trying to find more joy in the world. Sometimes I imagine that when I was a child I must have felt more joy, but I'm not certain, since I also had a lot of insecurities. Saw someone post earlier like "oh when i was a kid i thought everyone had a crush on me" well, you know what, I didn't. Because other kids made it quite clear I was weird and repulsive and not particularly enjoyable to be around lol. At least now I can own being weird and make it sorta work for me. To that one guy on that forum back when I was freshly an adult, who said "you're not an 8, you're more like a 2" fuck that, I'm even a 10 if I say I am, be for real. I have good bone structure, and my nose is elegant with the right facial expression. Nobody was even asking you. To that asshole who was like "there's no way you can see collarbones and ribs if you don't have some kind of eating disorder" why are you going around telling other people what's normal for their bodies?? I was worried about it for weeks. My body fat is just distributed differently to yours! Get over yourself!!

I know this place isn't really a void. Actually, I can see the traffic stats. I'm being perceived potentially hundreds of times each day through this site. Welcome one, welcome all. And I know I'm perceived on social media a lot aswell. I'm just doing my best out here. I'm tired. I want people to like me. I want people to talk to me, I want them not to talk to me. But anyway even though this place isn't really a void, it still feels nice to get stuff out sometimes. And maybe some of what I say will strike a chord with someone else, or maybe not. I just don't want to feel alone, and I likewise don't want others to feel alone... but I don't want to actually get out and do anything about it, so, here I am. Sharing weird Microsoft Paint art called Self Burger and complaining about annoying people I met online years ago. See u around, reader.